I feel cheap and used

Still haven't heard back from Sharon yet. That whole situation makes me feel cheap and used. I have never had a girl just sleep with me and then never call me again. I have only experienced me doing it to them. This has given me a new perspective on life at least in terms of what women are capable of. I have been getting plenty of messages from Maria and I have been a bit cold to her because I am not really in a rush to go out with her again because of her baggage. The thing is the more I push this girl away, the more she wants me, so it's not really working out very good.

I went on a date with a Persian girl on Saturday night so lemme tell you about that. I took her to a place called Bottega del Vino which is a high end Italian restaurant. The place was pretty overpriced but the food was really good and so was the wine. She was very impressed with the place but then again she is only 23 years old so she hadn't experienced much in life I don't think. She was very attractive and I was looking at her arms to make sure they weren't too hairy because these middle eastern girls tend to have hairy arms but hers were ok. She had big bouncy natural breasts and they were quite distracting most of the night. She moved to New York from Iran when she was 12 years old. She told me some horror stories about her homeland and I was happy for her that she was able to get out of there and come live in the USA. She said she experiences racism for being from Iran and with everything going on in that country with the uranium processing etc I am not that surprised. I had a veal dish and she ate some vegetarian risotto which I sampled and it was really good. I miss having good risotto but I never order it at a restaurant because they usually serve it as a main course and who wants to eat nothing but rice as a meal?

We talked for a long time and she told me she hadn't really ever been in a real relationship before and that she had mainly hooked up with guys that were douche bags and bad boy type of guys and she wasn't sure why she liked those guys so much but said she wanted to find something more real and perhaps fall in love with someone. After dinner I suggested we go somewhere else for drinks but she suggested we go back to her place and I was like um... ok.

So we arrive at her condo by taxi and I am starting to feel nervous as I do not know what to expect from this girl. She seemed a bit conservative and reserved but after hearing about the kind of guys she was dating I started to think maybe this girl is a bit of a quiet wild one. We get into her small cozy apartment and I take off my shoes, turn around to start saying something and her lips are pressed up against mine and I was like wtf but yay. We ripped our clothes off on the way to the bedroom and I tripped on something and bailed on the ground hard. It was pretty distracting to be in pain but I suffered through it and got her onto the bed.

The next morning I laid there in her bed while she was in the shower thinking that was a bit of a surprise. I felt pretty good about myself and was tempted to just slip out the door and head on home but she emerged naked from the bathroom before I could leave and the next thing I knew she was straddled on top of me and I never ended up leaving until about noon. I was killer hungry and had a craving for a good philly cheese steak. Stopped on the way home at this joint I know, picked up my sandwich and went home. Life is good. Meeting girls online is a lot of fun