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"Where am I?" That is what I was asking myself as I awoke in the hospital 6 days ago. It was like awakening from a recurring, never-ending, nightmare. I gasped for air and reached out violently. There was nothing but white. It took a while for my eyes to regain the ability to focus. "Hello? Hello?" I yelled. Suddenly I heard voices and the white screens were thrown back and a figure in blue hovered over top of me. "Lie down sir" she said. I passed out and I awoke again although this time more gently about an hour later. This time there were 4 doctors and nurses around me. I had the worst headache I have ever had in my life. Thank god it eventually went away. After about 15 minutes of being awake, I finally understood what was happening and where I was. I had been in a head on collision 2 months ago, the same night I wrote my last blog entry. The driver that hit me was a woman and she was drunk. She did not survive the crash. They said they found her body in 4 different pieces.

They said it was a miracle I even survived the accident. I broke my left leg and my left ankle and I smashed my head on something inside the car but they think that the air bag took most of the force because the damage wasn't as bad as it should be from the speed both cars were traveling. The damage was however bad enough that the doctors decided to induce a coma so that they would be able to give the brain a chance to stop swelling. I don't seem to have any brain damage and that is good lol. My work was very understanding and they just hired a temporary guy to deal with my tasks. I am still working through all of this but let's just say I am in shock... and oh my poor car. The upside to this is that I went and got a new benz and I got the E63 which is the new one and it has 507 horsepower, I really like it.

Now let's bring you up to speed on the whole internet dating thing. Well what can I say. It has been 2 months of no communication from any of the girls I was either talking to or fucking Needless to say I have some angry frustrated emails and voicemails and well lots of stuff to deal with. None of the girls I was with really were right for me and I realize that now. I have had a chance to reflect on how I felt with those girls in the last few days so I am just going to start fresh with new women. So I am going to login and look at all the new girls that have joined the site since I was last on it and then send some messages to them. I also have to reply to the new girls that sent me messages - I think I have about 20 messages from random girls I have never spoken to before to reply to I will update this blog again soon once I do all this stuff and have something cool to share.

Well that was a shitty day. And yesterday was pretty shitty too to be honest. I have been working on this huge massive gigantic account at work. I have been working these guys for 3 months now, bragging about how I was going to get the deal. This company represents 30+ of the largest bands in the world and they were looking to switch web design firms and redo ALL of their sites. I have flown to Arizona where they are located SIX times jabbering with their executives. God I hate dealing with large companies and all their corporate bullshit antics. Takes 37 people to make a decision and by the time they actually make a decision, no one can remember how they even came to that decision. Synergy at it's finest... lawl. Oh well I do what I do and try and tolerate it the best I can without going insane. I mean, I do make a lot of money and I get to travel around the world all the time and make connections that I can use later to my advantage but sometimes it sucks when I put in so much effort for no reward. What else sucks... well I got a flat tired yesterday which sucked balls. Took me 30 bloody minutes to get it changed and no one stopped to help me. Not like I actually expected anyone to stop and help me but hey... it would have been nice. I also found out that the old gym I used to work out at is still charging my credit card even though I canceled it 4 months ago. So I go down there and I have to talk to some dumbass sales rep named Judy who don't know jack about squat and I am like doubleyouteeeff mate? And she is like huh? anyways eventually I was able to talk to some musclehead douchebag named Scott who was just trying to sell me a new membership etc and saying how they would just discount that toward the fees. I was like !! and he was like :o so I just stormed out of there and figured I would try my luck dealing directly with my bank about the matter. My bank wasn't very helpful because they told me to talk to them which I already did so now I have to call their head accounting place in California where their head office is located to get the situation resolved. I called earlier and I got put on hold for like 10 minutes. What else sucks, well I am getting a sore throat. Whether here in the city has been shitty as hell and I haven't been dressing properly. Also I have to walk out to the lot multiple times a day plus take people for test drives back and forth so I think all the hot cold hot cold switching has contributed to that. I have a quite a few messages online from new girls that I had initiated contact with. I spent part of the day yesterday at work when things were slow to do some surfing and pick out some girls I would like to connect with, then send them each a personalized long message. I have a fairly good hit rate with the initial messages I send because I take the time to write something interesting and not so male typical because the girls you meet online have a radar for that sort of thing. There is one really cute Korean girl I have met named Shuzi and yeah I know her name is weird lol but she is really cute so it just seems cute to me now. I have a thing for cuteness. I studied tae-kwon-do when i was a kid but that is all i know about korean girls. She doesn't seem as polite as I would have imagined korean girls to be but maybe that is because so far I have only met Japanese girls who are super polite. She is really into anime and was asking me about all these different anime's because I had said "yeah I like anime too" which really meant I had seen Princess Monoke and Akira lol. I had never heard of any of the titles she was rhyming off and when I googled them later they all looked hella gay and I was like wtf this girl is an oddball. I wonder if she like tentacle rape too? I have also been chatting a lot with this white trash girl named Rhonda. She literally lives in a trailer park. She is really hot and she is only 24 years old but she dresses really trashy and her hair is all wild and shit and she has facial piercings but you can tell she is really hot under there. She lives with her crazy parents, and I feel sorry for her, I almost feel like rescuing here. I am going to try and take her out this weekend but I don't know where to take her that won't intimidate her plus I dunno if she actually has any respectable clothing to wear to a decent restaurant. Also I am going to feel awkward rolling through a trailer park in my 500 benz.

Well I'm 27, and I've been living as a bachelor in Manhattan for a few years now, and I figured with how popular blogging is that I could start my own site about being a single guy in the new york dating scene (fuck I hate terms like that). So here's a little bit about me...

I work for a pretty big web design firm in sales... Sounds like a boring job but it's actually pretty cool, most of our clients are either clothing labels or restaurant chains, and we have two music labels as well so we get to design each artists website. No, I am not allowed to drop names.

I live in Chelsea. I share a townhouse with a buddy and we've lived here a couple years (yes we're both straight, lol). I've been thinking of checking out the Battery Park area as that seems a little quieter and a little more my style, but we'll see.

My last long term relationship was over five years ago, and since then I've had a couple of girlfriends here and there but nothing that materialized into anything meaningful. My goal I guess is to keep enjoying single life until my thirties, and then think about settling down... Hopefully by reading this blog I will help any guys in a similar situation with meeting women!