trailer park

Hello my loyal readers, I hope you all had a great New Years Eve and Xmas vacation. I must sadly report that I have not yet heard back from Rhonda and I was hoping that maybe she just was busy with holidays and stuff but it is now the 5th and still no word from her. I am tempted to drive over and visit her again but I am worried about running into her psycho brothers and I am also worried about seeing her and her not wanting to see me, in other words, there is a reason she hasn't contacted me yet and maybe it is because she is bored of me or maybe she met someone new.

I have to focus on 2010 and the new women I am going to meet. I was really enjoying the time off and it sucks that I am now back at work. I haven't got much work done today yet, pretty much just been playing Lexicon on facebook all day hehe. I have also been searching through the online dating site I am a member of looking for new girls to meet. I have sent out about 20 different messages to 20 different girls and now I am waiting to get some replies back. It is amazing how many new girls join this site every week. I was begin to get worried that I had already found all the low hanging fruit but then I see these hot new chicks joining almost daily and I am like yay.

I have a meeting to go to soon, I have to leave in like 10 mins so I will keep this brief. Christmas was ok, spent that time with my parents in the Hamptons and my whole family was there. It wasn't bad other than all the snow and stuff. New Years Eve was pretty good, spent it in Times Square of course with a couple of buddies. We partied until 5am that night, was good times but left me with a killer hangover. I really need to start doing yoga again and start working out again because I am getting out of shape and losing my muscle mas and I am also starting to gain some fat. Talk to you all soon.

I drove over on Friday to the trailer park where Rhonda lives. This time I drove right into the park. I noticed several people staring and gawking at the car as I drove through the park. I wasn't sure if they were just admiring the car or if they were pissed off that I was driving through their place with such a fancy car. It took me a few laps to find her trailer. I could have found it sooner but I wasn't about to stop and ask for directions. There was some old truck parked in front of her place and I had no idea who's truck it was. I pulled up in front and was just sitting there for several minutes. I was contemplating whether or not to actually go up to the door. A big part of me was screaming to just get out of there as fast as possible and wait until I hear from her by email or something. I finally decided that I would go knock on the door and just as I was about to open the door, the door to her trailer opened and some redneck looking guy in his late twenties opened the door with a scowl on his face and a baseball bat in his hand and started walking toward the car. I was like wtf... do I start the car and get the hell out of there as fast as I can or do I face this guy? I decided I did not want to run so I opened the door and got out really quickly and said "Hi I'm looking for Rhonda". The guy walked right up to me about 3 feet away and just stood there silent. I repeated to him that I was looking for Rhonda and he was just like a bizarre statue standing there. So I just stood there and stood my ground as was like fine I guess we are just going to stand here and posture for a bit. All of a sudden Rhona bursts out of the door and runs up to us. She puts her hand on this guy's arm and tells him it's ok that she knows me that everything is fine and he can go back inside. She tells him that my name is Rob and she tells me that his name is Kevin and that he is her older brother. He grumbles a bit then puts the bat down and comes back and sticks his hand out to shake it. So I grab his hand and start to shake it and he has a really firm grip and I also gave him a really firm grip and we just stood there squeezing the shit out of each others hands for what seemed like 30 seconds. I can relate it to the feeling of being in an earthquake that only lasts 10 seconds but feels like it lasted for 5 minutes. Finally he releases my hand and says "He seems ok to me so far sis" and then turns and goes back inside. Once he is inside, Rhonda turns to me and throws her arms around my neck and starts to kiss me. She tells me that she missed me and she is sorry she didn't contact me sooner that somehow she misplaced my cell number and she hadn't had a chance to visit the internet cafe in a while. She invited me inside her trailer which I was really hesitant to do. I walk in and there are 2 guys sitting on a couch watching TV drinking beers. There was also a woman there standing in the kitchen cooking something that actually smelled very good. One of the guys of course was Kevin whom I already met and the other guy was named Paul and he was even older. He seemed a bit more mellow but when he noticed me, he stood up abruptly and walked over to me and introduced himself and shook my hand in the same fashion that Kevin did. Before I could even reply, Kevin says "Want a beer and throws a beer at me". I barely caught it and was like wtf that was fucked up. So I say thanks (of course) and crack it open and of course it foams over and some of it spills on the linoleum floor. I was like arghh do you have any paper towels and they both laughed. Then Kevin says "Hey ma, Rob here is a slob, wipe up the floor" and she comes over and wipes up the floor like some kind of slave. I was quite taken aback by the thing. I drank my beer pretty quick, wasn't thrilled about being there in the first place. Rhonda said she was had to go to work in 30 minutes so I was like ok, well I just wanted to drop by and say hi and I gave her my cell phone number again then left. I am still trying to process everything that happened.

Last Saturday was my date with that white trash girl named Rhonda. I decided I would take her to a sports bar type place with good food that I know of called "The Mean Fiddler". I knew that it didn't matter how she dressed that no one would care and she would fit in, if anything I would stand out. So I went to pick her up and luckily she told me she would meet me at the entrance of her trailer park because I didn't feel like driving in there and also the road appeared to be quite bumpy and shit inside. We agreed to 7pm and I arrived at 6:55pm and pulled over and parked. Sitting there was not fun as I was being constantly eyeballed by two shady looking characters that were hanging around the entrance to the trailer park. Hopefully they were just drug dealers wondering if I was looking to score and not something I need to worry about in the future like Rhonda's half brothers or something crazy. She finally came out at 7:10 and was apologetic for being late and she said that she had to help her mother with something. It was a good thing that I picked the sportsbar to go to and not a normal restaurant because she looked really trashy and slutty and cheap looking. The ironic thing was though that she smelt amazing, she smelt very angelic and fruity and I was thinking this girl is definitely a dichotomy. Even though she is rough around the edges, she is a very positive person. It always amazes me when I meet someone who comes from such a shitty environment and yet they are the happiest most positive person around. Not only does it amaze me, but it make me feel inadequate but more about that thought later. She was very impressed by my car and was acting like a bit of a schoolgirl on the ride to the bar. We got there and ordered a pitcher of beer and some steaks. The steaks were really good because they used this awesome peppercorn sauce and the peppercorns were all various colors. I love that kind of stuff.

I noticed a few people staring at us and it was almost as if I could read the expression of judgment on their faces like what is this guy doing with this weird girl. I hate to admit it, but she does look weird. She is hot though, and nice and has a great personality and I feel a bit like The Taming of the Shrew where I feel compelled to change her into a more refined creature. A girl/woman that I would more normally be attracted to. But I wonder if I did get her to change if I would grow bored of that because that is what I am used to and perhaps the reason I am attracted to this girl is because she IS so different from what I am used to and what I think that I want. After dinner I took her to a movie. That was a different experience than I thought it was going to be. She ordered a massive thing of popcorn and then just chomped on the popcorn throughout the whole movie totally oblivious to my existence. I am going to assume she behaved this way because she is white trash and growing up probably didn't have a lot of movie experiences because she was poor.

After the movie I decided to drive her home and play it a bit coy and see how she would respond. I realized that she was a bit of a tomboy and wasn't used to acting very feminine. Also wasn't used to being around a man and not acting like one of the guys. She was very strong but at the same time very weak and inexperienced with men. Outside of her house she hugged me and I wanted to convert the hug into a kiss but she pulled away and then looked back as she was running to her door and said bye and waved.

I stood there disappointed for what felt like 5 minutes but I'm sure it wasn't actually that long. Now it is Friday and I haven't talked to her all week. She isn't online much because she only has internet when she goes to the internet cafe down the street and she doesn't have a phone. I am thinking about just driving over there and knocking on her door. In fact that is what I am going to do.

Well that was a shitty day. And yesterday was pretty shitty too to be honest. I have been working on this huge massive gigantic account at work. I have been working these guys for 3 months now, bragging about how I was going to get the deal. This company represents 30+ of the largest bands in the world and they were looking to switch web design firms and redo ALL of their sites. I have flown to Arizona where they are located SIX times jabbering with their executives. God I hate dealing with large companies and all their corporate bullshit antics. Takes 37 people to make a decision and by the time they actually make a decision, no one can remember how they even came to that decision. Synergy at it's finest... lawl. Oh well I do what I do and try and tolerate it the best I can without going insane. I mean, I do make a lot of money and I get to travel around the world all the time and make connections that I can use later to my advantage but sometimes it sucks when I put in so much effort for no reward. What else sucks... well I got a flat tired yesterday which sucked balls. Took me 30 bloody minutes to get it changed and no one stopped to help me. Not like I actually expected anyone to stop and help me but hey... it would have been nice. I also found out that the old gym I used to work out at is still charging my credit card even though I canceled it 4 months ago. So I go down there and I have to talk to some dumbass sales rep named Judy who don't know jack about squat and I am like doubleyouteeeff mate? And she is like huh? anyways eventually I was able to talk to some musclehead douchebag named Scott who was just trying to sell me a new membership etc and saying how they would just discount that toward the fees. I was like !! and he was like :o so I just stormed out of there and figured I would try my luck dealing directly with my bank about the matter. My bank wasn't very helpful because they told me to talk to them which I already did so now I have to call their head accounting place in California where their head office is located to get the situation resolved. I called earlier and I got put on hold for like 10 minutes. What else sucks, well I am getting a sore throat. Whether here in the city has been shitty as hell and I haven't been dressing properly. Also I have to walk out to the lot multiple times a day plus take people for test drives back and forth so I think all the hot cold hot cold switching has contributed to that. I have a quite a few messages online from new girls that I had initiated contact with. I spent part of the day yesterday at work when things were slow to do some surfing and pick out some girls I would like to connect with, then send them each a personalized long message. I have a fairly good hit rate with the initial messages I send because I take the time to write something interesting and not so male typical because the girls you meet online have a radar for that sort of thing. There is one really cute Korean girl I have met named Shuzi and yeah I know her name is weird lol but she is really cute so it just seems cute to me now. I have a thing for cuteness. I studied tae-kwon-do when i was a kid but that is all i know about korean girls. She doesn't seem as polite as I would have imagined korean girls to be but maybe that is because so far I have only met Japanese girls who are super polite. She is really into anime and was asking me about all these different anime's because I had said "yeah I like anime too" which really meant I had seen Princess Monoke and Akira lol. I had never heard of any of the titles she was rhyming off and when I googled them later they all looked hella gay and I was like wtf this girl is an oddball. I wonder if she like tentacle rape too? I have also been chatting a lot with this white trash girl named Rhonda. She literally lives in a trailer park. She is really hot and she is only 24 years old but she dresses really trashy and her hair is all wild and shit and she has facial piercings but you can tell she is really hot under there. She lives with her crazy parents, and I feel sorry for her, I almost feel like rescuing here. I am going to try and take her out this weekend but I don't know where to take her that won't intimidate her plus I dunno if she actually has any respectable clothing to wear to a decent restaurant. Also I am going to feel awkward rolling through a trailer park in my 500 benz.